ok, so maybe it's cloudy tonight. whatever.

school has basically consumed my life. i am doing ok but it is a lot more work than last year. i know, i took honors classes, but why! why?!

ok, my main point of discussion is not going to be my long absence. it is going to be the full moon. did anyone you know start acting really weird around wednesday of last week? could it be in relation to the full moon?? *add mysterious music here* but, seriously. quite a few people i know just went nuts around the full moon. this couple i know broke up and usually they had been in what appeared to be a very serious and strong relationship. and the girl, who is pretty good looking, has started going out with some really ugly other dude. wtf??? this happened at the last full moon, but they had managed to get back together and everything was fine. i guess two times wasn't such a charm. plus, a few normally quiet and rule obeying people just went nuts. like this kid in my 4th period who refused to be held back after the bell and pushed his way past our substitute to leave the class. of all people, you would never expect him! anyways, just giving a few examples of how crazy people get.

is it really the full moon's fault?

i really like the song "precious" by depeche mode.

right now i am bumming around on the computer trying to delay my paper for english. it isn't necessarily hard, just boring as all hell. we also just started reading macbeth. blah. plus i got a C+ on my american history test. god they are so much harder than last year! ahhh!

anyways, i gave tyler my "50 reasons i love you" today and he really liked it. i'm glad. you really think you love someone? try writing just 50 reasons you love them. it is really hard. i mean, i didn't use the average ones like "you are nice" or "you make me happy." be as creative as possible. the little things are so much fun. once you get on a roll you can't stop but it takes awhile, even so. making a little book like that is an awesome present! if your guy likes that sort of thing. it kind of sucks that tyler will be starting wrestling soon. i know he loves it and i love how strong he gets and how well he does, but i still miss him so much. and i can't go out to eat with him because he will be such a picky, bird like eater because he has to make weight. gosh!

well, talk to everyone later!

music - "mad world(cover)" - gary jules

it seems that almost everyone is gone and doesn't use this site anymore! i really don't like myspace because it looks to cluttered and too many people have it. i don't want everyone who goes to my school to know about what i write and some of my thoughst and feelings. but, whatever. i have been semi-stressed out with school but only because some teachers think they don't have to teach everything by themselves and they can have the students do it or figure it out for themselves. so stupid. i am in school to learn from a teacher. anyways, softball is over and we got third in state. this is really sad though because this may have been the last year i get to play because our team is kind of falling apart. some girls want to quit so they have more time for other sports of jobs and others are just too old to continue playing legally. now all i have left is summer/rec. ball and that isn't all that competitive. but, oh well.

i don't know what else to say. not much is going on in my life that anyone really cares about. umm, i really wish halloween was here. tyler and i are planning on seeing the corpse bride halloween night! if anyone wants to come you should call me or tell me so we could all go as a group or double date or whatever you feel like. so, yeah. not much else to say! i hope everyone is feeling ok and nothing bad is going on!

it seems a few of my friends have left this site. that makes me sad. but, whatever. with school starting again will i even have time for this?

yesterday i got my license! i was so nervous taking the test. when the instructor asked me to park by the curb so he could give me my results, i was like two whole feet away from it. he kept telling me to be more observant, so much so that i thought he was going to fail me. but finally he told me that i had passed and i was able to go pay and get my picture taken for my license. phew! i am so glad that is over with. i just made my 'maiden voyage' today when i went out for lunch today and it was so wonderful! the feeling of being alone in the car and completely in control of where you want to go was just so exihlirating. i was still cautious and didn't speed or do any illegal turns or anything. i was kind of angry that people kept tailgating me even when i was going a few miles above the speed limit. it's almost like they just don't care about the speed limit. what if i had to stop suddenly and they bashed into me? ugh, it just gets on my nerves. stay the hell away from my bumper asshole! lol, anyways, school is comming up next week. i can't believe it. *tear*